So I had a crazy weekend. I had a plan for the weekend, but the plan bit the dust about halfway IMO execution. It ended up better that way.
My date for the weekend was supposed to take me to the Bama game to sit in some sick seats. He couldn’t get me on the phone for about an hour that morning so he left me. Long story short, I went to Tuscaloosa alone.
My best friend from childhood gave me a ride. Well, her parents gave me a ride. I rarely see her because she lives in NYC now, so I quite enjoyed getting to spend time with her and her boyfriend and parents. I showed them around campus and the sorority house and we checked out a tailgate.
After they headed to the game, I went prancing off with one of my favorite guy friends and spent the rest of the night with him and his brother, for the most part. There was much banter. It was fabulous.
My only break from those boys was to see a former flame who happened to be around the corner. Basically he misses me. To make that story shorter- he suggested I move to Houston to be with him. Eek!
This morning I got picked up by an old friend to go to lunch and back to Birmingham. We ended up picking up another of my favorite folks and eating Mexican food AND Coldstone!
I’ve spent the rest of my day with family. We’ve got a funeral to attend tomorrow, so we’ll see how all of that goes.
Butt dial and booty call are basically the same words but they mean very different things.
My life gets so confusing sometimes. Everything is going right and yet it all feels slightly off. Why is it that following my moral compass and doing the right thing often makes people mad?
So I believe you readers know I’m a bad blogger and a bit of a mess of a person. That said, I have no idea what I’m doing in the dating world. One second I’m in a boring relationship because it keeps me on better behavior, and the next I’m on a different Tinder date every night shamelessly ordering good beer instead of PBR. The latter behavior tends to lead to me talking to a few guys at a time.
Lately things have been strange with the multi-boy situation. The last three people I’ve made out with told me I’m an amazing kisser. When the first one said it, I was thrilled! (I’ve always been curious and worried I was awful.) When the second said it, I felt like best two out of the recent two MUST be some sort of miracle. The third? Pure shock. I think I giggled, but wasn’t able to explain. But then…
One guy asked if I kiss everyone like that. I said I don’t know, but I started feeling guilty wondering if he thought he was my only one.
This week a different guy was just sitting there looking into my eyes and asked how many guys I have lined up. When I prodded for further explanation, he said that with my eyes and smile there’s no way he was the only one.
Gah! I want to be so sure I can settle down and not worry I’m missing out on some other handsome guy with a good heart and a job. I’ve been in love a few times in my life. None of those relationships were long term. Apparently I settle for what looks good on paper and feels safe, which is really a punishment for both of us and a waste of time. Is that what it takes to stay out of trouble for me? Maybe. But the sense of safety is a falsehood because I’m keeping myself from being completely happy. I should date who makes me smile.
The problem with it is heartbreak. I’m afraid of it, and my reckless behavior with other people’s emotions risks causing it. That makes me the ultimate of hypocrites.
I’m a hypocrite and I wish it wasn’t true.
So I went on a date last night and we went to the grocery store before he brought me home. He left something in the car and went to grab it. When he came back, he walked into creepy dude’s apartment! He’s the only person I know who’s seen the inside of that place! It’s all so frightening. Some of the groceries he carried in weren’t mine, so that was odd. Yay free powerade?
We went to the Barons game and it was fun, even though we lost. Carrigan’s is the new cool bar here in town and we had a good time there, too.
We stayed up late talking about Grace and salvation. Who is this person?!